Gentle Reader Sandy’s questions afford me a perfect opportunity to christen the HMS Tarotsplained. I like to use a multidisciplinary approach. Let me note again that I recommend finding a competent therapist (PRO TIP: not necessarily the first, second, or even third one you talk to) and getting into a long-term therapeutic relationship. My mental health person is always my most important doctor. I’m not only talking about people who are abused, either. I mean everyone can benefit from good mental healthcare.
So I did a tarot reading for Sandy, a five-card reading that would allow me to see a few things in relation to her questions:
- The querent in her position – 7 of Swords, upright
- What’s crossing her, the challenge – King of Pentacles, upright
- Her momentum, most prominent energy – 10 of Swords, upright
- A choice – 4 of Swords
(Sorry, in the video I identify this one as the gift. It’s not, it’s the option.)
- A gift – The World
Because I bungled up the first take at the reading, I will need to do a separate Tarot basics post explaining about the life path card and the significator for the purposes of readings.
In short, the life path card is the one that represents the individual’s evolutionary theme, the major they selected in this university called life. Then the significator is how that person shows up in ordinary situations.
Sandy’s life path card is the High Priestess. Because her Sun is in Aries, a fire sign, her significator is the Queen of Wands.
Because Sandy’s life path card is the High Priestess, it’s important to note that the Priestess is by definition a solitary woman who cannot be mated with. This is not to say Sandy can’t find a mate. But in order to find a healthy relationship, she will need to evolve her High Priestess. She must shore up all the chinks in her psychic armor. Once she has truly become the woman she wants to be, freed herself from her own unhappiness, she will be able to create that relationship.
The Queen of Wands was in the Pentacles (Money) pile. All of her cards were right-side-up, indicating that she does have a certain amount of clarity. She knows everything she needs to know. She is able to get things moving forward without delay. That’s what all the uprightness means. She’s clear.
Then of the five cards, only one was a major arcana card — the gift, the little something my saints wanted to give Sandy. This tells me that Sandy may be getting bogged down in the small stuff. This can be holding grudges, clinging to bad habits despite being clear about how unhealthy they are, being petty, etc. The sort of thing where you could take the high road to good effect. The gift card itself was the only major arcana card, the World. So my saints encouraged her to use this as the impetus to take her life up a notch, basically. The situation hasn’t killed her. So she must become stronger.
One thing Sandy said by email was really striking to me, because I have said or written the exact same sentence to other people more than once, and it never feels like quite enough to express the reality:
I sent Sandy to my real-life writing, teresavalentino.com. I have written a memoir about growing up as a child trafficking survivor, my experiences in rape culture. And the above is why I decided to write Dear Jimmy, because surviving rape culture with your soul intact is not considered a superpower yet. People like me and Sandy are ahead of our time. But our day will come, as they say. Almost here methinks. (Sandy asked if she had found the right YouTube channel, no. This is the right one.)
Regarding the latter — bleccch. Seriously dunk your brain in bleach. This is maybe a problem with the Saturn/Venus yod. I have found that Saturn makes it very difficult for people to see between the lines. Your option card, the 4 of Swords, speaks to this.
Again, swords represent air, or in astrological terms, Mercury — the thoughts, words, part of the mind we are or can be aware of. As soon as you become aware of the subconscious stuff through the Moon or Neptune, it goes from the water wheelhouse to the air, Mercury’s domain where we are conscious of thoughts and words.
The preponderance of swords in this layout suggests a need for grounding in the heart mind in order to access the higher wisdom. This can often be done through the physical body — maybe by practicing acting like a Taurus. That’s a nice meeting point for Saturn and Venus (the conjunction atop her yod, which may feel very out-of-control), Taurus. That’s the sort of wife I get you’d like to be. (Sandy’s avatar is literally a bucket of money lol)
Also with this many swords be on the lookout for lies and treachery, words not matching thoughts. It would be worse if the swords were reversed. But a lot of swords is usually fraught in my experience, lots of ways things can go wrong.
So you may fake it ’til you make it with Taurus — in which you have absolutely nothing but the Midheaven — as Mary Kay, Queen of the pink Cadillacs, used to say. Since you mentioned mail-order Eva Braun, okay, she’s a Taurus with big Saturn in her chart. So be very sure that that’s who you’d like to be. I wouldn’t trade places with her for anything, even if I never had to get within 10 feet of him. But she’s a master of the pussy whip. OMG, ultimate boss of that. So she is a good role model for you in that way. But she is who she is, and you’re someone who reads this blog. So copy her moves, but don’t kid yourself about her being better than you in any way. It can be a lot easier for the dumber people to focus.
While we’re giving the devil her due, fine. Think about being the pre-Donald Melania. I think she met him at some disgusting golf function or whatever, where she was there to compete for attention among the stable. (I was invited to such things all the time as a young woman, and I have even less desire to go through the looking glass now. bleccch. Please read my memoir when it comes out. And watch the video that goes with this post, below.)
However, the squick factor aside, she was masterful at making a plan and executing it. Because as I said in her ‘splain, he was kind of the fastest gunslinger in the west for gold diggers, if you know what I mean.
So you have to get that she publicly rebukes him, and he keeps sniffing that seat every time she walks out of the room. Those two things go together. So you need to work the Venus side more than the Saturn side. You need to have iron-clad self-respect, refusal to engage anything but your own agenda, and then the world will have no choice but to mirror that back to you. Obviously that’s a road to tread with integrity. You said some things along those lines, I know you’re heading in that direction. Again, think about the crowd of beauty queens she competed against, to go from fingering herself in a shower in Slovakia or wherever to being the First Lady of the USA.
Treat ’em mean, keep ’em keen.
Readers from other countries may not have caught one particular line or understood the context: “You stay right, girl, and when you get on [in years] he leaves your ass for a white girl.” African-American ladies have a rough time finding marriageable men without criminal histories (and thus a socioeconomic blacklist) due to the prison industrial complex in this country. So the whole thing where you build a man up all his miserable life and he trades you in on a newer model, plus the lingering economic wounds of slavery.
Roses are red,
Doritos are savory.
Sandy, you have created this situation from within your higher self. Never forget that. With your Moon situation, and your mother (Ceres) playing the devil in your life for an Academy Award on the Descendant, it will be very easy for you to blame your ills on everyone but yourself. Never forget that life is but a dream, sweetheart. If lucid dreaming interests you at all, that would certainly be something to explore. It’s important to understand that we’ve never left the garden. It only appears that way in this dream we call reality.
Many people have been very wrong, as I said before, and I know they’re not sorry. But that’s their problem. Your problem is getting into the mood you want to be in, so you can build the life you want. The way to lick this problem and create the positive life you want is to insist on it. You must turn that frown upside down, waiting to see what happens, and letting life (your higher self) surprise you. Your outcome card, the World, couldn’t be any clearer.
Bashar once explained that the yin/yang symbol is the perfect way to understand the trinity, the empowered position of 3, the reason why 3 is the magic number in our triune universe. If you think about the yin/yang, the black and white are perfect mirrors, equal opposites. Then within each there is a dab of the other. That provides a way to go back and forth, an automatic escape hatch, if you will. That’s why existence is positive in orientation; there is a choice, the ability to experience the other state if you wish. And that’s a positive thing, making the balance of existence overall slightly positive.
So. Once you wrap your head around that, it may be easier for you to follow the rest of the advice in the reading.